Whatever will be, will be...

OK. After a very stressful and confusing few weeks since getting back from my trip I have FINALLY come to some conclusions. And I'm feeling good.

Last weekend I eventually got round to sending off the required CV and cover letter for the international school job I have had my eye on for a while. And it's been a very positive experience. I finally got round to updating my CV which I've needed to do for years, I produced a great letter that I'm very proud of and I got an almost immediate response inviting me for an interview just two days later.

I had the interview on Monday and, again, it was all very positive indeed. I know that I did the best I possibly could have and I'm confident that I made a good impression, through my knowledge, experience and personality, on both interviewers. I left the interview feeling extremely satisfied with myself.

This week I've experienced some varied emotions and thoughts about the job (mostly concern regarding the two year contract) but as the week has progressed, I have reached a conclusion. And it's as simple as this:

If I get the job, GREAT! I'll stay in Korea.
If I don't get the job, GREAT! I'll go home.

At this stage, and after weeks of considering all my other options, I feel that these are the only two options I have because I no longer have any desire to teach ESL and moving to and teaching in another country right on the back of Korea, for some reason, just doesn't sit well with me. So that's that! It's now out of my hands and up to a higher power to decide.

I would obviously love to stay in Korea; the thought of having to leave any time soon saddens me beyond belief. However, I am going into this with one very straightforward thought and that is, 'whatever will be will be...' Because whatever happens, it will be exactly the right thing for me.